One thing I’ve realized since sobriety is …. explaining the massive shift that has occurred in my perspective, and life, is really tough to articulate.
My not drinking is simply a sign, a result, of a way bigger and more profound internal change. I’m not operating with the same brain anymore. I have a shiny new set of tools that have saved me over and over in all kinds of situations. I see the world differently now.
How does one go about explaining the amazing power of “surrender” and observing without judgement without sounding like a spiritualality nutbag? I used to be adverse to such wordage. Instead of opening my mind, I would immediately get hung up on their foofy nature. It wasn’t until I was desperate, on my knees, open and willing to try ANYTHING (after logic and will-power and rationality had failed me) to get sober.
Fortunately, I have a good handful of people who I feel like I can open up to, both about the drinking and spiritual aspect of my journey (as they are both intricately entwined). But there are others I feel aren’t capable, or ready, to process this information.
And that’s fine. I wasn’t ready at one point. Others won’t be ready. I just have to trust that my change will be felt by others. I believe they will perceive a difference in me.
And that’s how I’ll tell my new story. Through my new life.